Post by Sephora Taryn on Dec 8, 2010 15:46:37 GMT -5
Dear Journal...
Wow...That sounds so teeny bopper...
Look first of all, I would just like to say that this was all Raine's idea. I would never go out and buy one of these fucking things on my own. Ever. I mean what kind of self respecting pack leader would actually write in a fucking journal? What am I twelve?
I am NOT going to fucking sit here and make hearts and scribble the name down of the boy of my dreams. I don't do that shit! No Seph doesn't operate that way...
Fuck...this is lame...lamer than lame...It's not like I have much to talk about. Sure, I have some issues. Like im so insecure about my abilities to keep my pack together...and I hate my father for remarrying after my mother died and I think all men are scum...but hey who doesn't have a few issues ya know?
I don't know...I haven't even spoke to my dad lately, the only thing he does is send me money and that is all I need him for..Him and the fabulous Gwen can spend the rest of their lovely fucking lives being giant tools together...I hate them...
The pack..The pack is my family...Cris is awesome and Raea is so sweet..Red...Red has some issues but I love her none the less and Justin...well..Justin is Justin and we all just kinda leave that alone...how Cris deals with him is completely beyond me but hey...then there was Ki of course...there is a subject I am so not touching...
OH! I have Raine too! Raine is my best friend and I love her to death even if i do wanna kill her because she is making me write in a damn journal...I worry about her sometimes...She sleeps with way too many guys for me. I particularly don't like the one with hair longer than mine...Weirdo.
Whatever. She thinks I'm prejudiced because I don't like guys...guys are fucking scum! every single last one of them...
Seriously! He's abrasive and sarcastic and and and and...so darn cute....FUUUUUUUUCKKKKK... You see this? You see what happens when you like boys? You spaz out because they're cute and they have nice muscles! OH MY GODDESS....WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?
This is my own fault..I let him kiss me...then I kissed him... I AM SO STUPID...WHAT THE HELL?!!!! okay...okay...I'm calm..I am not going to throw this journal across the room at all...no..no...I'm guna go punch a hole in the wall instead...No I can't I can't...The hotel wouldn't appreciate that...
I need to calm down before I explode...I just really need to take a deep breath and remember why I am the way I am...Men are scum. They marry you and then when you die they go off and Marry some one else...Or Or! you like them and then it turns out they just want to have Sex with you. That is what men are and no guy is going to change that! No matter how cute! or how blue their eyes are!
-sighs- I'm in trouble. Mhmmm..Deep trouble...
I'll talk to you later! Maybe! Don't feel special or anything...
Whatever...
Seph