Sane Insanity *Raea's Diary*

[Astraea Dike]

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Dear Diary, well, sorta,

It's been a long time since I last wrote in one of these... I don't know what to do really, I guess just start with what's been going on.

Kalona took over. Damn. I can't stand him, he scares the crap out of me and I don't know what to do anymore!!! The Brat Pack's gone crazy and whatever god or goddess is watching over us isn't giving us any signs that things will get better. The only things in my life that are normal are my dog Dana and Pride.

Wow, Pride. The only man in my life that can get me to calm down and keep me safe. I... don't know what I feel, well I do but if Cindy Secret finds out I can kiss my sanity goodbye!! She's so annoying! How can she know that Pride and I were in the library? OK that was a given but the kiss?! How could she know about that?!

I am with Cris and Miyuki on this, I want to kill Cindy Secret, I want to find out who she is and kill her. My blue highlights may be one way to fit into the BP but they accept me for who I am, not for the stuff I did to my hair. I'm one of the only ones in the BP that can keep Cris sane, and Justin may not know it, but he is too, even though he's a red fledgling, he is one of the people that keeps Cris, Cris. They really like each other, but with everything going on they might never get together officially.

So now onto Kalona again. I hate him. He hates me, and that's what scares me. He can kill me if he wants to and I'm just too freaking scared and I just... I don't want to go near him OR his stupid children, I hate him. I don't care how he made his Raven children look more human I want them gone and I want him dead, even if he can't be killed I want him dead.

Back to Cindy, she STARES at MY boyfriend running shirtless with his dog? OK shirtless Pride is hot but he's mine and she can't have him and she CANNOT watch him run with Juno!! I'm usually not a jealous person, but I just... I can't lose anything else in my life... Pride... I love him, and I don't want to lose him, do NOT want to lose him, he keeps me sane, he's everything to me and losing him would...It would really hurt me... I would rather die 100 times than have Pride taken away from me.

I guess that's about it, but if I have anymore I'll come back. OK?[/color]
Astraea Dike

[Astraea Dike]

Dear Diary,

Tonight's the night of the Masqurade ball so I'll be quick, I even just grabbed a random pen so that's why it's not blue.

Atlantis was awesome, Pride and I had so much fun, and we talked about a lot of stuff and we explored the beaches, Dana had a blast too, she loves the ocean. Pride was also talking about taking me to his next acting competition, which I wouldn't mind, as long as Dad doesn't find out. Haha!

Anyway, being back means my sleep patterns have been...Bad, again. I can't sleep. My dad keeps talking about taking me to live with my aunt in Chicago, ah, NO! I hate that idea. Pride hates it too, that's why the acting competition vacations are a secret, besides with the money I'm making working with Myrnin I can afford the trips without having to use my credit card.

Gotta get ready for the dance, I can't wait to see the mask Pride picked out tonight, all I told him was my dress color, haha, I'm sure other's will be wearing black but I like red and it went with the mask I bought.

Love,

Raea

[Astraea Dike]

Now I'm sure the New York thread is after the Mandy deal, and who knows when that is.

Dear Diary,

Well this has been some sort of odd beginning to the school year. I got a job with a crazy red vampyre, get this, he's also the chem teacher and I have a class with him. *DAMMIT!* I also have a class with the person that got me the job with the crazy person, Amelie. She teaches Lit. I think the only classes I have to look forward to are my Shop class, hot teach and brat pack, and Drama, Pride

Speaking of Pride we've gotten closer and I'm glad, I really love him. He's even talking about taking me to the acting competition in New York. Now if you're asking about "Does he know about your job?" No he doesn't and I plan to keep it that way. Pride is very...protective, and I love that about him I do but I kinda want to learn to fend for myself, Myrnin won't eat me I know it.

The Brat Pack are doing well, just need to plan another prank fairly soon.

OK? So we're good? Good I'm tired, night.

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Astraea Dike